Sunday, June 18, 2006

Miss Piggy

I'm up in the middle of the night, being what my hubby calls me... a "little mouse". I think he calls me this because I sometimes eat cheese and crackers at night, plus I have to creep around making quiet little noises, because he is a light sleeper. I am up in the middle of the night because I slept ten hours last night, and then I took a three hour nap after church... a total of fifteen hours' sleep out of the last twenty-four. I am going through a phase these days where all I want to do is eat and sleep. Oh it drives me crazy!!!! I am so tired of being tired and hungry all the time. I am not sure what is causing it... boredom, depression ( probably), loneliness--- I can't seem to get it under control!

Speaking of eating, I am ready to start looking for an Overeater's Anonymous group near me any day now. There are a few reasons I want to do this:
#1 I am pretty sure I have food addiction.
#2 I like the whole idea of a support group-- I've really
needed one lately.
#3 I am curious to see if a twelve-step program
would work for me.
I am Miss Piggy. I hate to say this because I am trying to be kinder to myself, but I gotta face the facts. I have an embarrassing attachment to food, and I would love to see what is behind it. I know some of it has to do with the fact that I grew up in a big family, but there's more to it than that. I eat when I am happy, sad, bored, celebrating, and when I am hungry. I eat when it's cold. I use food as medicine ( "If my tummy hurts, I better eat something to make it settle down") and most of all, I use food as COMFORT. There is nothing more comforting for me than eating.

I guess I need to find another way of comforting myself.

Maybe sleeping more will do it!

5 things I am gratefee for:
1. my cute nieces and nephews. neighbors who came and mowed down all our weeds.
3.the best dad in the world-- Happy Father's Day! mom ain't so bad herself new bedding.. finally pillowcases that aren't ripped!